The Future

My friends are encouraging me to think about the future.
They are a bit worried by me. I am about worried about me.
Like, I just cannot be a failure to my family.
And I dont know what to do... not at all.
I am not enjoying my classes.
I am tired of trying.
I it is hitting me that I have a 18 months left before I need to have an apartment, have a job, and be self substaining. And this scares me.
Because I know, I am flunking college.
I am very poor and won't get much help from the family.
And six months after college... loan collectors will be knocking on my door.
hmmmmmmmmmm